My whole life I felt different. Since I was in elementary school, I never felt like I fit in. While most people had specific friend groups, I was the girl who would jump from group to group, never really feeling attached anywhere. As I look back to those days, I realize that I didn’t really even notice that that was happening until high school. I’m currently in university, and I always hear people talk about how much they miss high school, how much they miss that part of their life. It always amazes me the amount of people that say that, because that thought NEVER crosses my mind. To be honest, I don’t think I could’ve left high school fast enough.
Fast forward to now, when I’m really starting to understand and connect the pieces to what has happened. Ever since I was younger, I always felt something inside of me. A burning desire that one day I was going to do something big, but I never knew what that would be; I always used to wonder whether anybody else got that feeling or if it was just me. At first, I thought it would be through running. I became a competitive runner in grade 9, and that was probably one of the biggest things that helped me get through high school. It also became a really big part of my life, and today I’m still a competitive runner and I run for McMaster University. But I don’t think my purpose comes from that.
I’ve always thought of myself as a fairly confident individual on the outside – I have thick skin, and you would think that nothing bothers me that much. But I have recently come to the conclusion that deep, deep down, I still feel like that little girl that doesn’t fit in, that doesn’t belong, that’s different.
Halfway through my first year of university, I started my own business. It’s been just over a year now that I have been doing it, and it has absolutely changed my life. One of the things that it taught me about was personal development. Reading books, watching interviews and training with people who teach you how to become a better version of yourself. These people were constantly inspiring me to become a better version of myself, and I fell in love with that idea. One of the biggest things I have learned through it is leadership – and that’s when it clicked. I think I had finally found the place where I belonged.
Not only did I learn about how to be a leader, but I also learned about how to be more confident in myself and change my mindset. I learned that it’s all about your self-image; it doesn’t matter how other people see you, or what they think of you. Do YOU believe that you are worthy? Do YOU believe that you are special? Do YOU believe that you were made for more? Because at the end of the day, that is all that matters. Of course, this is an ongoing transformation – it’s not something that will happen right away, and it’s something that you will always be working on. But once you start to make that shift, your whole life will change.
Now I am fortunate enough to lead and teach other millenials how to design their own life and do what really makes them happy. Through this I have learned how to share with them the importance of being confident in yourself and to have self-love for who you really are. In the future, I hope to run a program to help other girls my age that always felt different than everyone else and that felt like they never really fit in. I still don’t fit in, and I don’t think I ever will. But that’s ok; because I learned that what makes me different, makes me special.